1 More Day of Puasa...

Tonite was the last nite of Terawih.. Terasa kesedihan nya sejenak. Sebak dada di Ra'kaat Terakhir Terawih...

Just left 1 more day to Puasa. Selamat Tinggal Ramadhan, Insya ALLAH berjumpa lagi di Ramadhan tahun hadapan... So the day after tmrw will be Aidil Fitri.. How time flies.

Today was the start of my Leave, will stay out of work for 5 days & will be back nxt Wed 17 Nov. I was out to send NuRuL's kueh to her mom in Hougang, went there @ abt 11am. Its been sometime since I last went Hougang. Since NuRuL move to KL I've not be going there often. Actually almost forgotten the way.. heehehe.. however manage to refresh my memories. So after that I went ParkMall to had my manicure & pedicure.. Wah so vain rite? Its been so long since I was went to one actually. At least I had a good scrub of my feet. Wah... so shiok u noe.

Starting tmrw will not be able to blog often.. & tmrw will line up on task to do at home. My job assisgnment is to... Iron all the Raya baju for everyone. Imagine, there are 5 of us in the family. Everyone has almost 3 pairs each.. Gosh, I wonder how long will I take to finish all the ironing.
In the moring M@K has plan to go Geylang to buy the lampu kelap kelip.. dah 'blow' not working anymore. Kesian.. tak berseri rumah ku.. heeheheheh... Then later will go to Joo Chait or something see how lah. Make sure to be back home before 12noon. Later I will want to put mask on my face, pamper myself a bit lah. Or else the makeup will not stay on Raya Morning lah.. haahahahah...
Anyway actually looking forward to wear my new orange kebaya on Raya Morning.. Do i sound like a 10 year old kid so excited abt Raya or What???

"Selamat... Aidilftiri...
Kepada saudara serta saudari...
Setahun Hanya sekali...
Meraya kan Raya yg mulia ini..

Di masa.. Bulan Ramadhan..
Kita berpuasa hingga sebulan...
Pabila.. Syawal menjelma..
Hari Raya di sambut dgn Meriah..."

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI... MAAF ZAHIR BATIN...

Mlm 7 leko lah...

Tmrw is Deepavali holiday... I'll be working morning shift. at least not too bad.
will start leave from Fri 12th onwards till 17th will be back to work...

K.. thats it, as i expected He's attached. There's this guy i always met @ Kallang MRT every morning. I think i noe his but I'm not to sure if he's my primary school mate. Bukan pick up line lah.. Still not to sure if he's really the one. But if he is my pri sch mate i was talking abt, from what i noe he's married... eh entah lah.
Anyway, I met his ystdy morning. He park his car near to my blok but he took the MRT to work.. he must be working @ town or around that area lah. So i saw him from a far, but biasa lah pretending not to see. Best part was he pass by me from behind, guess what he did?? He pretending to clear his throat with the Ehemmmm.. Ehemm... gosh.. he dont have a pick up line lah, he has the 1960's P Ramlee style lah.. haahahah.. gelak giler...
So just now I saw him a few blok away from mine, i saw someone in his car. Must be some chic lah, girlfriend ke... Whatever it is lah, musti dah attached punya lah.
Selamat lah Mr Ehem Ehemmm.. Sakit tekak agaknya, puasa lah kata..

ok 3 days to Raya...

BTS ERA 

Puasa in KL..

Sat 06/11/2004 @ 9am
Left for KL on Aeroline, journey.. Smooth. sitting partner Ms ZoN@, nice lady..
Slept the Journey thru... shiok!
3pm - It was jam @ Sungei Besi Toll, biasa lah tu. Its a Saturday what do you expect.
3.45pm - Met NuRuL @ Corus Hotel - Jln Ampang pick up point.. oh ya, the Coach Driver is Cute.. young guy.. Z@iD
I told NuRuL abt it.. & she start teasing me in front of the guy.. heeheheheh... feeling young again..
We went to Berjaya Time Square, had an appointment wz Ivan or Berjaya. The want to nego on the deal for our PlaySchool there. previously they only can offer us RM12,000 rental. Now they are willing to go on RM3-RM4 per square ft, abt 1300sq ft space. We shall discuss wz Abg R@Z@K & TK on this issue. Yet to give them the updates. Manage to get the handbag that i really want, its RM219.00 however its on 70% off. so its only RM65.00.. Best Nya.
Had dinner/Buka @ NuRuL place, Mansor, Nurul & Myself went out to buy back. However it was raining cat & dog & all lah. its so heavy & its almost flooding. But still the makan was good, I got Ondeh2 also.. mengidam.. anyway its only RM1 for 10 smal pieces.. muai apa...

Sun 07/11/2004 @ 10am
NuRuL & me went to Masjid India. Jalan2 tengok bazaar dia.. oi buat mata rambang seh. so went to Semua House to look for Baju Melayu Ayah. manage to get the color & the size wanted. Cantik pulak tu, price is so reasonable RM 170.00, compared to the one Ayah bought here its abt S$120.00 or something.. kan beza tu.. ish ish ish... Lepas tu kita gi KLCC beli Kuih Muih, hai borong nampak.. satu bag penuh kuih muih.. Cekik darah betul.  Mesti aku merengkik bawak balik ni... That nite i reaslise that my bag will not be enuf to stuff the kuih2 inside. So NuRuL offer to swap luggage. Gosh its to Heavy.. mampus lah.. heehehehe... We had Tim Sum, Poppiah & Spagetti for dinner.. we bought at KLCC supermarket & NuRuL made her best Spagetti in town. Dah lama tak makan Spagetti dia.. heeheheh.. sedap pulak tu... shiok

Mon 08/11/2004 @ 7.30am
Mansor fetch us, send NuRuL to work & me to the bus Station @ Corus Hotel - Jln Ampang. I reach there early. Now I made friend with an elderly couple. They are going back to Australia, but stopping over at Spore for 1 nite. They're really nice.. So this time my Sitting partner I think she is 'butch'.. heehehehe.. my anthena says so lah... Bus depart @ 10am, anyway this time I really slept the whole journey thru, they stop @ Pagoh. I got up & go for a short walk.  Tot of buying some magz but nothing intresting there. So i decided to continue by sleep again..

1450pm -- arrive Tuas check point. ok this is the part the hussle of carrying my luggage down. Tak kan tak master bawak bag sorong/tarik tu, kan dulu jadi Stewardess boleh pulak, tak pandai2 lah... haahaha.. banyak kebabai Stewardess.. my sis will say that to us when they start teasing abt having the sorong/tarik luggage.. at least everthing went smoothly.. phew...

Reach home at about 1630pm, gosh my body is aching. Got to eat the musle relaxer aft buka nanti. then at least can sleep longer or something.. Whatever it is, its still something different compared to my other Puasa. I travel & buka in KL.. Not bad at All...

Yee Yee Raya Nak Dekat...

Its less than 2 weeks to Raya.. Oiii cepat nya... I tot i was just a few days ago when I start blogging when Ramadhan comes...

I got news frm NuRuL last nite dat @NZ show tkt are all sold out.. I'm so Sad.. So very Sad : ( Actually I'm all out to Q to buy the tkt on the day itself, but NuRuL sense we might not have a chnce to even go in. So as R@Udz.. But I hve a strong sense we can go in if we Q by 8.30pm. I dont noe we shall se.. But Still I WANT TO GOooo!!!... Its so Sad if really cannot go. How???

I'm back to Ok Ok situation wz @iNi now.. she's ok I'm ok too. But i just cant stand her being close to M@Di so irritating.. Sour Grape or what?? No lah.. Its just that @iNi always give a good treatment to him as if he is so PoweR. Anyway i saw the cookies that @iNi made on M@Di's table. Wah he also get ah? I tot it was only for those who are fasting? M@Di pun Dapat gak.. Mudah2an dia Puasa lah eh.. Aku doakan dia lah, Mudah2an setan keluar lah kat badan dia tu, biar jadi manusia sikit, Insya ALLAH... heehehehe... hai...

I hate this Feeling...

Dat feeling is coming to me again. It must b d bulan Puasa & d feeling of Raya where the atmosphere is you noe... dat is making me feeling depress. Its been 2 Raya years dat I'm left Single. Gosh, I just hate feeling this way...

People who r away from d country & family will feel tis way during Raya. But I felt tis way even though I hve my family wz me all d time.. I'm just feeling a bit lost thinking of how those who I use to love most left me having to leading a happy life wz their love ones but not Me! RiZ@L is having Raya wz his Wife & this year his daughter.. He@ is now having someone new & special wz him, of all you noe planning or having plan on some wedding preparation.. God Knows...

Look @ what becomes of me.. Feeling lost, lonely, empty..

I just hate feeling this way when Raya comes...

Its always the Case...

Its my "OFF" days starting today. so I was thinking might as well I do some shopping since I will only have a week. So I decided to go around Orchard to look for my desire handbag... Beaded or any nice dinner handbag in Gold to match wz my Shoes I bought 2 years back & I still have not wear them for some reasons lah...
I started wz OG, but I didnt see anything I like.
So I move ahead to Metro Paragon instead.. still no!! I tot I saw some of those beaded handbag months back.. Where have they been???
I was thinking I should just move on to Taka then.. Believe it or not, I saw a few of them. But it cost a bomb.. $79 for a handbag just for Raya. You've got to be kidding!!!
I was telling myself last stop will be Isetan Wisma & if i fail to find One, thats it, I should head back home. True enuf, sad to say I see NON!!..
I noe its always the case, when u wanna look for something they are not there. But when u dont need them, especially when its before pay day, then U see those nice things that u dont actually need them...
A hungry man is a Angry man indeed... I headed back home feeling Hungry &.. dissapointed. I shld look for 1 in KL, coz R@uDz bought One nice & afforable one in KL last month.. I think I should look for them at the same shop we went last month.
Anyway I'll be going to KL, just a short Kueh Hunting trip.. Best Nya!!!...

me 

Compliment!!!...

oh ya..!!
I receive a Compliment letter for a customer.. He's not SH cust yet actually. I was actually 'selling' our product, it must have sounded like an agressive selling for cust to change provider till he was convince that he should change. Hmmm... not bad, my selling skills is still wz me eventhough I'm no more in Sales Dept for more than 5years...

Well to M@rkUs the guy who send me the Compliment, you've make my day.. & made my Appraisal looks good for 2005..

Cheers...

Break Fast wz the Gang...

Today's Berbuka Puasa was FUN, at least i have some gang to eat togather.
@ini made burger from home, i had the Bubur Masjid, E@rniE only had MacD for Buka.
YuSri@n@ was having buka wz us too, she had Delifrance. R@F, Sur@yA, @nis from SHA & Kak Sheh@ also sama2 buka.... Best kan so many people around.. so fun. At least you dont feel so odd eating at office felling pathetic seh..

K 1 more day to Afternoon shift, Wed will be my OFF day again. In my head is just waiting to Relax on Off days that all... Actually want wait to go KL early Nov to see NuRuL, at least can Buka Puasa in KL... never had my Puasa there & buy Raya Kuih there too. This year, FiDz & myself will buy Kuih Muih instead of making them, we're not allowing Mak to make kuih this year. Anyway we just want her to have some rest & not distubing her Ibadah of Terawih & all since my parents are going Haj nxt year Jan 2005. So this time is Fully No Kuih Making, Fully Beli Punya lah...

Thats Life..

Ever since I started wz this blog, i just realise how boring my life can be. My stories are just work, thinking of someone who dont think of you & same daily life.. & thats all??
Gosh how boring my life can be. If its a working day then its just work, answer calls, speak to arrogant S'porean who are so calculative over 5cents & 10cents. Then they start to shout @ u, then they give u hell. Simply just ruin your day wz their nasty sarcastic & vulgar. Cant stand them, all the same.. Malay, Indian Chinese.. All the same... They just dont give you some peace even on Saturday & Sunday. After that we will start counting down time to go home @ 1830H, thats only if your in the morning shift. Otherwise if you work @ noon shift, you will have to wait till 2300H. At the end of the day you're back home, watch TV if time permits, nite comes then you go to sleep. Nxt morning, you will tell yourself, "Its another day" But no.. its the same thing over & over again. It just gets "sian", how I wish I can leave soon.. I said that many times. Its almost 5 years now, kept saying I'm leaving, I'm leaving.. but nxt year March 2005 Its my 5th year. My, How long is it gonna be?
Its been 2 years, I've not been mixing around or going out on date or what so ever you call it. Never expect to stay single at this age, never imagine. I've just got to do something.. Just dont noe where to start. I'm not desperate to look for someone, to think the fact that I've got to start over thats what I hate most. But I just have to start 'looking around'. To be honest, I wish I can leave S'pore soon. Not that I want to run away from thing, but maybe.. Just have to start somewhere like I said earlier. Just got to go away so that its a best excuse not to get near to people that will remind me of things that has happends in the past that leave me single till how.
I've wasted 3 years of my life getting hooked to someone, infact some-TWO.. They left & that leave me with being like this. Not regret, Never regret, but I felt that its about time, at this age of mine, that some responsibility of mine is given & shared with someone else who should take care of me rather than my parents. My parents never complaint, but I noe my mom is concern that I might NOT get myself involve wz any other man anymore... Its just difficult to explain.
Bottom line is.. What a boring life its been for me.. I think PMS coming, getting a bit emotional.. heeeheheheh....
Still the conclusion is.. ME still a Survivor Babe...

Cant wait for Tmrw Off Day..

Finally.. 2 days off frm tmrw onwards.
I'm so tired & lack of sleep. But thats common when Ramadhan comes. But this time I'm extreme exhausted due to the Afternoon shift then the day after I'm back to morning. Imagine, only 4hrs of sleep after back home @ 2330H on Sunday & wake up @ 0445H on Monday for Sahur..
Today didnt make it to Terawih @ Masjid, only did it @ home. Apa lagi perut ni buat hal lagi... Tmrw so much thing line up to be done, but 1st & for most my sleep.. Can wake up slightly later.. Best Nya!!!!...
Last Nite I receive an overseas miss call! If i see the number its definately a Middle East Mobile Number.. I thought its.. U Noe Who!.. But thats very unlikely. So I decided to call back the number... Someone said Hello!! with the person voice on the other end I noe its sure to be a Wrong Number..
Hai of all people in the world, a Middle East person dialled a wrong number to me!! Is it a Test or A Sign?? Mungkin tidak lah.. Cubaan....

** Its Just Not Worth It... **

I found out something ystdy, He@ has someone new!!  I knew it, I knew this will happend. I've already had the hunch months & months back. So how di I noe it now?? I hve my ways to find it out!!! My instincts say so too.  I've seen Her before last few mths, I have this strong sense.  I only presume things, but I dont hve much proof.  Anyway, now its obvious its another 'foreigner'. Coz i was the only Local Muslim in his short period relationship.  After all that I've gone thru, He@ simple found someone new so soon.  While I still think that He's the most wonderful person I've ever met.  So dumb me.. Bodoh.. 

Well, He's not worth my thoughts lah.  If I tell my friends this story they will tell me, "why u still think abt him? Why make yr heart sore by checking things out? I told you before he's not worth it??" ya, ya, ya.. they can say all that. But I'm glad I found it out myself, I see with my own eyes. I noe that I'm right... I knew this was coming, u might never noe I will receive news he's getting married soon.  Of all u noe he's married to her already!!

He just dont deserve me. I deserve someone better.  We are definately not compatible & I must say, his Best of Friends all sucks big time... Do i sound sour grape??? errrrrr............... I'm simply effected.  No More Miss Nice Lady. What happend to this STRONG lady?? What with all the Get Over it..  But I'm still Irritated!!!

I noe NuRuL will nagged at me, but its orite. I can accept her motherly naggin. I guess she must be tired of telling me the same thing over & over again. Always tell me to forget abt it, dont start to think & ponder over those things that will make my heart so sakit... K i make a promise not search for info freely so as not to make my heart sore again :P

Oh No, Its Back!!!

Oh No!! My stomach ache is back.. I hate it when it start twirling & twirling. I can only apply medicated oil on my tummy. On top of all I'm working noon shift, hai lemau. The minute I step out of home, I'm already feeling not good. Cant afford to go on MC, no more MC left. When its start to sweat & yawning.. oh no its a sign.. K Sabar2, relax evrything is gonna be fine. The afternoon sun is so Hot, start chanting prayers hope can make it to office. Selamat, manage to reach office in 1 piece. Has a slight argument wz R@udZ coz she starts nagging. Ask for medicated oil she ask me to bring sweets just incase. I dont want to think of breaking my Fast right, can prevent that from happening 1st then if really cannot tahan then its something else lah.

I dreamt of Him@ last nite.. The dream looks so drama. It was flooding in S'pore, macam Titanic pulak. The water is already up to the 5th floor of my 12th storey flat near Kallang River. I was trying to figure out how to swim, I dont noe how to swim lah! I saw my parents in the dream too, howevr i tagged along wz Him@ instead. Normally if we dreamt of someone they face is not so clear, but I saw his face so near. My whats up wz me man. Anyway its just a dream, permainan tidur. Now it make me think of him.

Its been exactly 2 years since He@ called off the wedding, I'm over it already. Cant simple say much. Still respect his family, they are a bunch of good people. Our family know each other for over 20years. Its just not fated to be together but I'm still strong, surviving. But sometime its not good to be strong all the time. I've always been given the copmpliment of a strong lady but God Knows how strong I am. Sometimes weak too. Woman, what do u expect!

Today I buka alone, having Masalah Tosai for Buka. Ask my colleques TeeB@ to buy for me at Tekka. Mesti Sedap punya lah...

1st D@y Pu@s@

Today's Puasa went well Alhamdulliah.
However its a Hot day, felt so thristy especially during Terawih. Subahanallah, haus nya hari ni. Meet Bibik & my cousin, Sofi & Hestee @ the Masjid Haji Md Salleh Geylang having Terawih togather.
ok tmrw is another day...

Selamat BerPuasa...

Selamat Datang Ramadhan, esok dah puasa... Alhamdulliah berjumpa lagi di Ramadhan tahun ini.. Alhamdulliah.

Today afternoon shift till 2300H. Dinner break we went makan @ Tekka Market. Makan Beryani Ayam.. hmmm sedap nya : P
balas dendam nampak, esok dah puasa.

I just got to noe frm NuRuL dat Riz@l has resign UPS. Such an idiot.. I guess he just do not noe what to do in Life...
Riz@l's my ex for 2 yrs. we plan to get married until 1 day in Oct 2001 he decided to mention things like.. "we need space.." So thats it!! I knew it.. its over! we plan on things like a place to stay near KLIA for convenience sake. Bought a house & I contributed RM$ for d house we viewed. Ya, Riz@l is frm KL... we noe each other since 1999 coz we were working in J@L... anyway he left me, got married to a M@S stewardess now they've got themself a 1yr old daughter. Good for them lah, happy family. However he still hve an unfinish business wz me.. My RM$3000+ is still left unpaid to me.. Its been 2 years since the last payment done, only Last Aug 04 NuRuL got the other RM$200 so called installment need to be settle. Now he's gone missing again... Wish him Luck lah...

Berapa hari ni ramai pulak orang kol, old friends lah.. Sur@tm@n my secondary schoolmate called, he heard that I'll be leaving to KL after Raya this year. I told him not yet.. so touched, called all the way just to chk if I'm really leaving already... H@slind@ my ex colleques in J@L called, we're talking abt the Raya show in SuRi@ my sister, FiDz & R@udz went last sunday. Talking abt how was the @NZ show doing, was good lah coz got to see @NZ again.. Anyway he sang live, 2 songs.. Fuyooo Power seh. Menusuk ke kalbu, tangkap lentok ah!! Ai Seh man.. heeeheheh...

@NZ 

Wh@t A D@y...

I receive an email frm F00Z that he was delighted to receive the cake yesterday afternoon. I told him its the thought dat counts. However he told me that gambar cake tu Massallah Gambar SuperMan!! Mak ai.. malu nya. I've got to call the cake order to chk what is going on, i asked for Chocolate Cake. Apasal jadi Cake SuperMan.. heehehheheh...

I was having lunch today, so decided to eat in. There is this guy I'm close wz, R@f dah jadi good friend. anyway he is married lah ada anak 1. So talk to him in the pantry. Sekali tu, ada sorang amoy ni sikit punya turn off. She slap my butt betul2 depan R@f & the best part Panty is full coz all lagi makan. Mak Kau, i am so embarrassed chendol betul. Furthermore its so bloody Loud she smack me... Tak sakit lah eventhough its so kuat & the sound was loud, but its so very malu coz everyone was looking at me. I simply cannot look at R@f after that, but i just pretend nothing happend... siap si Amoy ni, nanti hari dia datang siap dia. She called me Discipline Mistress coz she said my face look so garang everyday. So it guess she was trying to act friendly, nak step good friend lah kira but tak kena tempat nya...

Tmrw on noon shift, seems I'm gonna miss the 1st day of Terawih then.. At least on Friday the 1st day of Puasa is my off day...

The First Blog...

Finally...
I've been wanting to create a Blog Page since.... since... i dont noe when... heeheheh.
Was still stuck with the old fashion Diary Writing. Once since this year or two time just dont permit me to sit down & write.
I've started writing diary since donkey years.. school days... Why girl like to write diary hah?? I was ever being question by a guy Friend or two. They just dont understand what do this girls write in their diary.. Of course! Its for me to noe & not for you to Find out!!!!...

K today is my off day.. few more days more to Ramadhan. This year didnt get to change all my afternoon shift. I hate to ask around, like begging to swap to morning shift... ya lah I tot this a chance not to be miss lah rite, since the month of Ramadhan is the only time we can eat proper dinner at home & then to go Terawih wz the rest of the family. Bila lagi nak buat baik kan... But not too bad lah, manage to change 6 days out of 15 of the afternoon shift... K lah ber syukur aje lah...

I'm so excited abt today coz I've made a birthday cake order to be send to a friend today coz tmrw is his bday. My email & never met friend, FooZ He is 1 of the write of a local Magz in Spore. Nice guy to chat wz, talk sense & such a great listener. Got to noe him for almost a year plus. Kawan aje lah.... Good Friend lah kira. His bday is tmrw. I remembered his bday is the same day as my TL Daisy, last year we had a grand bday celebration for Daisy till she cried.. so touching.. It was a hell of a Grand bday celebration, coz she is like a mother to all of us.. so we all are very comfortable wz her. However i remember sending a bday wish to FooZ, he told me.. "Thanks for remembering coz nobody in the office remember..." kesian nya dia... so this year kita buat 'gembaq'... I've ordered a chocolate cake, which i noe he cannot resist, to be send to his office.. I send him my bday photo wz a Big Chocolate bday cake.. he something like tak kasi sikit ke.. heeeheheh.... *Surprise...* Hopefully he likes it lah, Insya ALLAH. Didnt mean anything, just a thought to make someone happy on d big day...

NoReeZ