what to wear... what to wear..

Have you ever stand in front of the closet for more than 15mins thinking what to wear to work? I guess its pretty common for someone who dont wear uniform to work.

A few months ago, while unpacking some stuffs from our previous unopen boxes when we last move, Mak found some old baju of mine. There was this particular long sleeveless dress that I surprisingly can fit on it.. Its pink, I decided to have it go along with a new brown cardigan. This is my 2nd piece of clothing from 10years back that fits me. Proud or what eh? heeehhe..

Last Sunday morning, I was out walking with Ayah and Mak from home to Kallang Bahru for marketing. If you know how far is Upper Boon Keng Road to Kallang Bahru then you will know how far we walked going and coming back home. Its like 4 bus stops aways if you take 853 or 26 from our bus stop. It was a refreshing walk there.. At the same time, there is always time for quality talking with Mak. I'm making full use of the new track shoes that Ayah bought it apa...

Today, since its my off day, I was up the same timing like I'm going to work. And join Mak's aerobics class downstairs.. FOR THE FIRST TIME eh I join them. Gosh, I just realise how long I've not exercise even warm ups and stretching I felt so 'kejong' hahah.. At least I pull thru it. Mak and me went out to Kaki Kaki at noon, called to make an impormptu appointment. Lucky there were still available slot. My 1st time doing ear candling, surprisingly I didnt know that I had sinuous problem. Because you cant hide especially it shows from the burning residue. We had back massage as well, pamper or what. Especially so when I had that stiff neck and back a few days ago, that massage really helps..

We went to buy lunch at Joo Chait, Mak suggested we buy nasi ambeng at my Pri Sch friend Mimi - Nurbanisah Ghani's stall. Its been a while since I meet her. Mother of 3 kids now, hear from her that Riana Karim, another classmate of ours just gave birth to her 4th child. Hebat betul korang korang ni.. Mimi said, "kau ni bila nak kahwin Noris.. Kau nak tunggu sapa pulak. Datuk K dah kahwin pun... Datuk mana kau nak ni?" Mak bluntly reply, "Datuk Y lah.." I burst out laughing.. cause its coming from Mak!

I just hear from a friend that someone I know has breast cancer. I'm sorry to hear that.. I hope she is strong enough to take it. Just hope the operation goes well and may my prayers be with you, Insya ALLAH..

I'm glad to hear from Nya' that her husband, Dee will be moving to Singapore and join the family here some where soon. Alhamdulliah.. Its not easy for seperation from the wife and kids. Its not that I know how it is like, but living far away from someone you love is not easy right.

Y had a cancel/delay flight to attend yesterday. He reach home till almost 9pm. I am very sure that he's exhausted, especially when he had to watch the kids school work after that. Its not easy for him, I know that. But he's just pushing himself to handle it well. When he's being asked, how are you coping with situation? He said ok I can manage.The thing is, he HAS to cope with it no matter what. So last night, he called me at almost mid night. As usual, we normally catch up on whats happening in the day. And Guess what? He sleep talking! I dont know what he was mumbling.. He must have went to sleep while talking to me hahaha... Teruk betul.

Tomorrow is a working day for me. I may be meeting my old colleague in JAL Haslinda for lunch Insya ALLAH. Probably having another coffee with Za in the evening.. We'll see how. I am suppose to meet up with my old friends from CIAS LM this friday. But I'm not sure if its going to happen. On the other hand Saf is asking if we can go Badoque this Friday for dinner or something.. Y has yet to plan our date this week.. and that I dont know when, because this man will plan it at last minute.

BoyFriend meets BestFriend..

Ever since Y met Za at the in house course, he cant stop talking about this best friend of mine.. Wait till Y meet up with Nya' back again.. Y said, "ya eh Nurul lagi lama I tak jumpa.." I am telling you, they have been exchanging stories about me.. Gossiping non stop. Every day he's been telling me what they both talk about during break. Well I owe Za some Big Makan cause she's been putting good words about me Yo! Dear ZALEHA, Dinner on me. Nanti Pay Day ok. hahaha..

I had this stiff neck since last few days. It goes from the back of my right ear right down to my back.. Gosh, thats when I knew its the cause of all those heachache and fever I had last few days. I had to put koyok and hot old just to make it feel cooler. I had Ayah massage my back with hot oil. Baru lah boleh sleep better..

Ayah complaint that I've not been exercising. Ya right, Ayah pun sama jugak. Actually Y said to me the same thing. So much about telling Za, "Noris dulu besar tau.." ya lah that was 14years ago.. Now, according to him I'm smaller a bit. Well he has not seen the BIGGER side of me like 7 years ago when I had my Thyroid problem that time, so GEMUK aku.. He better not complaint that I'm fat or what ever eh. He better accept me the way I am hahahah... Anyway, today I went to have my medical check up at Raffles place. After which, Ayah asked me to meet him at Mustafa Centre because he insist that I Should get myself a proper sport shoe! "So jangan make excuses that boleh ikut mak exercise lagi sebab Ayah beli kan kasut baru hahaha.."

I had a short conversation with a 13year old girl. Agressive.. Its gonna be a challenge handling her. She sure need time and space for acceptance.

Ok cousins coming later.. Ciao.

Under the Weather..

Since Sunday, I've been under the weather. I was at Al-Iman mosque for the blood donation drive and supporting on their other activities. With Ayah being busy with the mosque activities, Mak & me were outside the tent watching the activities. The Sunday Morning Sun makes my head ache that late afternoon. I actually pleage to be part of the Blood Donation, unfortunately I was not eligable due to having fever the last few days. Surprisingly, I met Aden there with her 4PM mates voluntering.. Its been some time since we last meet.

That late afternoon, I stay in bed feeling so heavy in my head. Never felt that before. Y got so worried called me 7 times that day. He even suggested that I should not do the blood donation since I was not well. He know me too well... Anyway, Ayah picture with the PM is on BH today..

I started my 1st day of work yesterday. Still having the flu, I was so not in the mood. My head was spinning like crazy. I was not myself yesterday, my throat was sore and my taste bud not feeling anything.. Everything seem to be not right. I endure the whole day only after lunch I felt much better. People there are nice, work is not bad. Anyway I didnt do much yesterday. I still have tomorrow to start learning something new.

Za and Y are attending the same course for the past 3 days. They are so building rapport with each other. Both getting excited about meeting each other for the 1st time even after hearing stories of each other from me. Since Tuesday, this 2 people have become like best friend sharing stories and talking about common people and that ME! Today's their last day of training, they are so going to continue stories I bet you..

I just saw my mobile phone bill today. My Gosh, my incoming calls are 2200+mins! That was so much call I receive. Anyway, its nothing compared to 2000+ calls of Overseas calls the last time. At least its still local calls I'm making. Not to bad lah.. So much about lecturing the daughter, wonder how much is the Ayah's phone bill for this month hahah..

Oh I'm so feeling much better today, Alhamdulliah. Ready for work again tomorrow..

Got the Job!

I went for a job interview on Tuesday morning. I thought its a full time perm position, instead it was a Part Time job offer. When I wasn't looking for Part Time position, it came along and I wont want to miss it.

I got pretty excited telling Y over the phone. Honestly, I was hoping I get it. I was looking forwards for something else more that day actually..

So yesterday, the HR lady called asking me how comfortable was I with the job after the interview that I had. The interviewer seem happy with the conversation we had the other day. Alhamdulliah. Just before Zohor, she called me again. Offering me a good pay amount with medical benefits and medical leave entittlement. I will also be given Annual Leave and AWS offer. The pay is Alhamdulliah more than the previous temp job that I had. Could not ask for more than just feeling greatful with what is given to me...

Monday, I'll be signing the contract. Will start next week. Best part is, I'll be working only on day Mon, Wed & Fri... Interesting.

Hello to Good Vibes. I believe that good things are in store for me, Insya ALLAH. Its falling into place. Syukur, as long as I don't forget where its all coming from..

Anyway, I had coffee with Saf & Kak Liza last night. After our maghrib at Sultan, we headed to Bugis Junction to meet Saf. I was craving for J-CO again.. I'm addicted to it lah..

After having donut and coffee, with intense conversation about so many things, we decided to continue at Kampung Glam cafe. Saf was feeling hungry.. Andak came to fetch us back at 10am..

Now I'm having this sore in my throat. Went out to Paya Lebar for a while and the weather is sooo HOT! Felt this sudden headache.. Let me take a nap, hope the headache will go away..

The Weekend's Activity

The norm, I will be either at CCK1 or SAV for the weekend. Last weekend, CCK1 was occupied with visitors from Philippines in which I decided to stay home instead.

On Saturday evening, there was a Forum at Darul Aman Mosque organized by Md Salleh Mosque. So we stayed from Maghrib till the forum end at 11pm. This was one of the activities by Md Salleh Mosque to raise fund for the mosque. Didnt expect it to end that late, was being offered to fetch from the Mosque back home. The first impression and meet up! We went home happy..

I didnt really plan to come along to anak Encik Yusoff Nikah at Masjid Alkaff. Only after Mak asked then I thought why not. Then I get to meet the relatives.. We were there early, thinking that the nikah is before zohor. Instead we were the first few people to arrive.

Nikah was at 2.30pm, we get to zohor at masjid at least. But the whole kenduri started since 12noon. It was a simple wedding held at the mosque itself. At least its a small gathering yet meriah..

Meet mak's cousin, or rather my aunties. Left Ramlah and Right, her sister Asiah. They are my fellow USTS senior's back in school days. The groom are their nephew.

On the Right is Malek, Ramlah's husband. They have been couple since Sec School days..

Weeks back, Raihaniah - Mak's anak angkat had her daughter kenduri cukur rambut, but I didnt attend. Han, that's how we address her as, was taken care by Mak when she was in her primary school. I always remember her as 'makan semua nak bubuh kicap'. Now she's a mom of a lovely daughter. See how peaceful she sleeps..

I've got an interview tomorrow. Hoping for the best.. Insya ALLAH

I sms Za a few days go asking if you could meet up for coffee.. Usual day for meet up is Wednesday cause that will be the day where Min, Za’s Husband have his class.

I plan to meet Rohana for a while, pass her some stuffs. I was hoping that Za & Rohana get to meet for a while as well since they have not meet for 20years or so. The timing was just right, I reach TM at 6pm, Za just arrive and not long Rohana came along. We chat for a while and later Rohana had to leave since she was having class that night..

Za and me had dinner at C sq, we talk about a lot of things. Saw a few familiar faces there, but yesterday I was too lazy to acknowledge anyone. I am glad that even though Za and me were separated for more than 10years, we still maintain our communication frequency.. Alhamdulliah..

We continued talking and move on to Coffee Bean. We met an old schoolmate there. Wahid, from our batch however he was in the express class with Yani & Iskandar. He’s married (and his wife is so jambu ok!) His son is so handsome… I should have snap pictures of him, so cute! Wahid still look the same, not much changes. But its touching, to see someone from your school days carrying his son in his arm and looking so fatherly.. He asked if I’m attached now, I said single still but Insya ALLAH… That evening, Za & Min send me back reach home at almost 11pm! I had an awesome evening..

I had a good talk 2 nights ago. I just recall how lost I was a year back, thinking of what I want and to do in life. No perm job, no partner, feeling lost and not knowing where to start. I think I’ve ever blog about how I feel. Things were different since end of last year. That was when I start searching for old friends, and it make a difference after getting in touch with my school mates. Gradually things gets better, even though I still didn’t get a perm job still. But my life has been great, I’m much happier. Now I know what I want, what should I do and where to start. Life is much more complete now Alhamdulliah.. Its just a beginning and I hope that things progress smoothly. We’re going to the next level, Insya ALLAH..

I was at home for the whole week, apart from last weekend sleep over at CCK1. The rest of the weekday are spend at home. I’m getting bored.

Yesterday, I was out with Mak to Arab street and Bugis Junction. We shop for a few material then later went Bugis Junction. Mak said, bring me to places since you’re still not working..

Nya’ sms me at 4pm telling me how tension she was at work with cases to handle. We decided to meet at Town. We plan for dinner at Lucky Plaza. Before that I bump into Vel, we chat for a while and plan to meet up again for dinner with Ros or something.. Nya’ arrive at almost 7.30pm. Had dinner and later went to Taka to shop for a while.. Didn’t get to buy things that we plan to purchase. Went home empty handed actually..

Today I had lunch with Rohana M. We only decide on it yesterday. I was out early since 11am, went to Raffles Place at later headed to East Point where we plan to meet. We had lunch at the basement. My 1^st time there at Hanis. Food was not too bad. We later went around East Point. Didn’t get what we wanted. Rohana suddenly decided why not we go to Geylang instead. Went round TKC, Pasar Geylang looking for things but disappointed with the pricing and choices. Last stop was at Joo Chait complex. I met Abg Kamal, Ayah Angah’s close friends back in their younger days. Chat for a while, its been so long since I last saw him. Went around and shop a bit, satisfied with what was being purchase. Well Done! Final stop for food was at Hjh Maimunah, before I head home. I told Rohana that our schoolmate Kamal is working at Roslan Renovation. I told her why not just pass by who knows. Surprisingly, he was there sitting near the enterance. He was not sure who this 2 ladies standing in front of the window looking at him. I signal, “kamal kan?” He then realise who I was when I told him my name. At least it’s a fruitful day, meet people, shop around and spend some quality time. Meeting 2 Kamal’s in a row, how about that.. Thanks to Rohana for the ride home..

I was rather down after hearing that my weekend plan goes down the drain. I thought I was soo looking forward for Sunday, until I heard that I have to make a sacrifies. In which I have to wait for another week.. So there goes Sunday’s Date! And I’m still feeling sore about it. What is 1 week in comparison to the years of waiting man… That’s peanut! I’m just making myself feel good.

Good Girl stay Indoor..

Its been 2 weeks now, I'm stuck at home doing nothing. Its getting monotonous but I cant do much. Apart from that all, I've been watching Ellen in the morning, followed by Oprah then Rachael Ray.. Just love watching those talk shows.

Dont know what is bloody wrong with my net, it get disconnected every few times a day. Its getting on my nerves, especially when I'm in the middle of sending an email. Not too sure if the Modem is down and its the main cause of it or what.. I thought someone was trying to 'steal' my network or something but later realise the modem's lights were all off and causes the disconnection. I'm too lazy to call the helpdesk cause I just hate to wait when the hotline is busy.. Unless its really urgent..

I thought of going out today, but I change my mind. Firstly, I'm not too sure where should I go. I'll rather stay indoor.. Perhaps tomorrow, I hope!

Thought that counts..

It was an emotional day, being alone having to go thru everything without the better half. With a day to celebrate, it means a lot especially with kids to say, "sayang Ayah!" Nothing is worth more than just those words and it does make the day brighter than ever.

A Proud Father of Naqia & Nabil...

I use to do all that for Mak & Ayah. And I'm not surprise they still keep them. When we start open the card album and look at them. I feel so childish having to make those card and putting those words.. hahaha.. We were kids back then, what do you expect lah kan.. Its the thought that counts..

Adjust, Change and Adapt to Life

My life has been a roller coaster ride, But manageable.. I'm thankful to those who were there for a listening ears.. There has been stages in life that I'm going thru. Whatever it is, just have to start somewhere.

I was out with Ayah yesterday, quality time, dont intend to spoilt it with tense subject or topic. So I decided to keep it for now. We went to the PC Show at Suntec. With the past human jam experience taking the MRT crossing to Suntec, I've suggested to take the bus to Shaw instead. During the ride, it does bring back memories to Ayah when we go along Beach Road, Middle Road till we reach our destination. Never have I knew that the Raffles School beside Shaw Tower was where Beach Road Police Station was. That was where Ayah went to do Police VSC during our younger day. We were walking along the road to Suntec - Beach Road bridge, he recall where Cik Leman (Itam) use to play band at the Beach Road Army Camp Station or something..

Just when we arrive at Suntec the crowd was Wow! The PC Show opens at 12noon but we arrive very early thinking (assuming) that it opens at 11.30am. The Q is as if they are giving away free laptop or PC.. Where does all this people come from eh? After browsing not long just as soon as we enter, we settle for Canon Ixus camera. The intension was to purchase a Camera and probably a PC or Laptop. After which I suggested passing by the HP/Compaq booth. There was so many offer but I was feeling slightly mabuk. We decided to leave (because I already feeling like fainting..). Can wait for long, I need to get myself a drink before I faint in the bus or something haha... There should be a drink booth in there man.

This is what happen to someone who Never lekat kat rumah. When its time to stay indoor, I feel like I've not eaten for days.. takde energy. The small TV, the fan, this faithful Laptop of mine and my most comforting bed has been my Best Pal since I'm out of job. I'm doing great anyway hehehe.. Beggars cannot be choosy, ada apa makan.. And that has causes me to grow sideways and its only been less than 2 weeks!

Why lah the oldies band downstairs playing Tender Biru on a Wedding Reception ni. Tak faham langsung.. Tu lagu aku 15 tahun dulu lah chendol! Pa je.

I thought I was going thru massive mess again last week. But when I had my talk with Rohana M and Nya' it feels so much better. I think I should let it out and talk things over, it will not be bottled up. Yet I receive another person telling me this, "you should be able to handle this well at this age apa?" Then I realise what is wrong with me that its causing me to act that way.

I just realise that I'm using this particular pharse too many times, "Its not about you, Its about me." I then recall listening to the same sentence 6 years back, I then know where HE was coming from. I told him before, "Maybe I will be facing the same situation as you and I'll be saying the same thing." And I am now trapped in the same situation when He had it with me back then. Cakap tu satu Doa kadang. So dont say things if you dont really mean it. Baru sajak dgn muka aku. Life is a gamble, you will not be able to predict on things if its a losing game or a victory through out your life.

I've been actively looking and applying for jobs this days. I send at least 5 application per day, or the most like 10 email to agency and companies. Its never been easy for me to get a job, and that was the reason why its been on temps for the past 2 years. I'm not choosy, I just need a simple Recep or Admin or Clerical job. As long as my medical benefits and CPF are well taken care off, I'm happy with it. Honestly.. Maybe judging by my CV it looks as if I'm in and out of jobs, because all those job are Temp assisgnment of 2weeks to 6months. Like as if I'm job hop or something ke?

"Life is full of lots of Ups and Down..." Ya its true and that is the 1st sentence on the Song Shoulder to Cry On. hahaha.. Well life has never been easy if you have to please everyone. You have to take care of peoples feeling, to be concern over what people going to say and all that. But most of the time, its all important because we are Asian. But not all suggestions are for keeps. At the end of the day, it all comes back to you to decide. You have all the time that you need to adjust, change and adapt. And thats what I'm trying to do, Its just the beginning and there is more challenges to come. Good Luck to me!

Anyway, Happy Father's Day to All my Fatherly Friends. Especially to my Ayah and to "Ayah" cause I know where your priorities are..

Catching up on Old Times

My cousin Saf called, asking me to come over Sav since she's off yesterday. But I told her, sorry I've got lunch appointment. She said, what a life you've got not working yet busy with appointment hahaha...

I had lunch with my closest classmate in Sec Sch, Rohana M. Most of the time, our meet ups for coffee or lunch are impromptu. Thats what life of a single ladies like us, we are free to go anytime! hahah.. She came by to fetch me around 1.30pm, when our initial plan was to meet up at Bugis. She was asking me, "eh kau block berapa eh? 10 eh?" I told her, hello kawan Block 10 dah roboh oi!

We settle for lunch at Banquet Raffles Hospital. I've already plan what to have for lunch, its the fish & chip that I cant miss at Banquet. It was a big too noisy there, We had to get out of there for a decent conversation. My dear friend crave for Secret Recipe, we headed on to Plaza Singapura instead. I prefer sitting down with a cup of coffee and talk about everything under the sun. There we so many things that we cover on, open topic and its beyond description. I'm glad we talk everything out. I brought some of our sec school pictures, the most selengeh outfit we put on. The silly pose on camera that we find it most stylo and paling jambu at that time. I guess if our kids were to look at it will say, "eh mama, obit nya!" I'm not surprise...

We go on separate way around 4pm. She drop me at Bencoolen Street, had my Asar there. At least I can still hop on to NEL to meet Nya' at Harbourfront. I was early, Nya' left office slightly late. I just do not want to go around Vivo or HarbourFront because I have the tendency to shop! I just have to save some for rainy day since I'm not working. Or I will have to ask Ayah for some cash/help again hahaha..

Nya' arrive at almost 6.30pm. Meet Azlinah the Webmaster, and she said, "you're here again!" Oh yes, she been reading my multiply.. Nya' and me agreed on our favourite spot at Vivo top floor. I just love to view Sentosa from afar. Oh yes, meet Suzana Adam with Noah at Vivo too. She's here till the weekend or something.. What's with the Imran's fan there are all over Vivo..

Our friend like ayam berak kapor, missing someone. Didnt hear his voice for sooo long. Glad to have called him. Akak Miss You eh!

Oh yes, I hear wedding bells. Glad finally its coming. Not Mine lah! Been single for more than 5 years, deserve someone much much better. Even so much that you've been thru, I'm just glad that you're settling for someone new. Insya ALLAH, my prayers is with you Always. There goes my single babe, I shall make use of all this single time of your till August Babe!

I'm having late lunch with another fellow Sch mate. She's looking for an assistant, so I'm meeting her to catch up on things and at the same time discuss on whats the assistant job is all about.

I totally forgotten Reza's birthday. I remembered some time back Nya' told me his birthday in June or something. But when Nya' mention it last night I had to sms Bro to confirm the date. I thought it was 11th June, its was 1st June lah Chendol! Aku buat kelakar! Its been sometime since Reza, wifey, and bro last met. Even if I'm in KL, they timing is always not right.

Actually, I have a few things to do and settle. But I'm just not in the correct mood to do it. Ok I will have to target to get it settle by next Tuesday the lastest.... I Promise!

Ok got to Go!

A Time on my Own!

I spend a few days all alone and it felt much better. You just need that time in your life to reflect on things, think right and plan what step to do next.

Last thursday, I was out early. When to the bank, clear what ever bill that I have before I go broke the next month. I had my zohor at Moulana, then head to Changi Airport to spend some time to myself. I had a late lunch at McD, thought of asking Rohana M to come by for lunch togather. My cousin Liyana's coming back from her Philippines School Exchange program trip after 10 days. So I took the chance to fetch her at the same time sitting down at the Viewing Hall at T2. Listening to my MP3 and reading my book that is already overdue to return. I spend almost 4 hours there. Receive a faitful call from a Dear friend Za, told her I'm at the airport.. Thanks for the call Za. Suppose to meet Nya' after work but since Liyana's flight is at 6pm, I had to cancel it. Will not be able to make it to HarbourFront by 6.30pm. Andak & Kak Liza with Jannah & Nabilah arrive shortly at 5pm. Liyana's finally check out at almost 6.30pm. Grown up teenager feeling hungry after that long day, we had Dinner at McD (again!). They send me back home and I had an early night.

On Friday, I requested Mak to bake some Egg Tarts for my ex collegues. Since it was a sudden dismissal of service, I didnt have anything to give them. I arrive at the old office around 3pm. After which, I took the bus to Vivo from Ayer Rajah. I went around windown shopping at Vivo. Had a simple lunch at Banquet. A Nice Carrot Cake!

I know that I'm gonna come back to Banquet again for dinner with Nya'. So I had to leave some space for dinner later. And Yes, the carrot cake is sepad giler!

I went to the 3rd floor open space to enjoy the scenery of the Cruise Ship on my right and Sentosa on my right.. I spend another 3 hours there, its so peaceful and I must say its beautiful.

I went back to walk around Vivo since Nya's finishing soon. Met her at almost 7pm, we had dinner at Banquet. We decided to sit and chat at Level 3 (again). We had serious topic right under the moonlight. It will not be the same if you better half if your companion for the night! Thats what Nya' said, not Me! We left the place around 9pm. Q for cab was a dreadful, there was a long Q. We only got the cab at 10.15pm or later..

I had my weekend spend at CCK. Dier & Zaf came for late lunch, they had to leave since there's kenduri at Zaf's side. Saf & Abg Dee came at almost maghrib.Thought they might sleep over, instead left for home after the ladies watch the Indon Scary Hantu movie with McDelivery of McSpicy (and makes Jannah couldnt sleep that night came crawling to sleep in between me & Liyana). The man was watching the Football match and eating prata with Asam pedas.

Another day spend at Vivo again yesterday (why I kept repeating the places I went to eh?). from 12noon till 6plus. This time, brought along Makcik to jalan2. She's been indoor for so long, just need some time to breath some fresh air. Andak Family & Abg Dee family came over out place. Had simple dinner of pizza that Mak & Ayah bought. Kak Liza made macaroni and cheese. Makan apa yang ada & its all so 'busoqna ako'.

And today is another new day. I've been sending out application after looking into the Saturday Recruitment page. I just hope for the best. Insya ALLAH.

I just receive an sms from my sec school mate. She asked me, "you dah ada calon ke belum? jangan asik kerja aje."

For the 1st time for many years my answer was, "Calon? Ada lah kot. Insya ALLAH, kalau jodoh ada tak gi mana lah.." Did that come from me? Its been 5 years, 8 months since my last relationship! And now, I've forgotten how if feels like..

Start All Over Again!

First of all, Thank you to those who read & comment. Thank you for being my listening ears..

Today is a New Day. I just have to start somewhere, now I'm trying to plan my pace & schedule.

I had a talk with the Ops Manager, he has actually asked me out for Lunch. But I'm just too angry to accept the 'date' instead I went with others. Then he had to asked me for coffee instead. He mention about the feedback some managers have for me saying that I work pretty well and they are happy with my work. I dont think he should tell me that good news because there is No POINT AT ALL! He told him in all Honesty that I'm was unhappy & dissappointed that he had to break the bad news to me without giving me much time to prepare my future plans. I know he cant say much, anyway, I just want it out my chest that all.

I still cant bring myself to sit down & send CV for application. Maybe I just need some more time to relax. I'm treating today just like an Annual Leave that I took..

I got to go.. Going places & taking a break, some time to myself...

Was asked to Leave!

I was told yesterday that Today will be my Last Day, they don’t need extra hands. But I feel like its a Term! Since I'm a temp, its not a correct term to use.

I feel that it should have been told much earlier. Guess he knows that I’m unhappy about his announcement, of all people, someone I’m comfortable with had to give me the bad news. He’s trying to be nice today. I don’t feel like talking tell him..

So where should I land now? I will have to start all over again, at the point when I’m comfortable with what I’m doing now. I feel like crying, but I’m not really sure why. I guess it’s the friends that I’m going to miss. At the same time, I’ve very very concern with what’s going to happen to the cash flow. And that I will have to work out on it.

Wish me luck people. I’m going thru another Test in Life again..

Thanks to those who was there for me all day yesterday, eventhough thru sms & phone calls.

Now or Never

I had a peaceful sleep after I get to straight things out last night. I’m glad that I do that and manage to take things and act like an adult. Thanks to those who was more than willing to give their listening ears. We could have done this much earlier.

Time will tell

Its clear cut and obvious to realise that my action was all due to saffocation of being too concern. I dont need to explain much, its understood. But I still feel there was some unfinish business unsettled. I need to act like a mature adult and face it myself. I still want to handle it face to face. Dont worry, I dont need to consult the parents as yet as its still at a manageable stage. I should be able to handle it well at this age. On top of all, only time will tell... Insya ALLAH.

I was at a 2nd cousin's wedding. Khalil Saiful Bahri, is so grown up and married, heard that he's 26years old today as well. Love attending relative's wedding because this is the only time to meet up with the everyone apart from waiting for the next Raya.

Tok Unggal Jailani from JB, came with his family.

The Decor by Istana Wedding is BEAUTIFUL. The Food by families of the Groom actually, is so sedap. I've yet to have my 2nd serving tonight (sebab dapat tapau apa...). A slight dissapointment with the song selection as well as the KaraOKe, Tok has requested to head home earlier sebab dah pening kepala hahaha... I should have brought with me Imran's CD or even burn some nice songs for wedding of relative. So at least I dont have to go to the music counter and asked for Anuar Zain or Imran Ajmain or apa2 lah.. Bawak aje CD sendiri.. I will remember the next time. Here are some pictures of the wedding. Sorry blur, pakai mobile phone aje.

Another week of work, I'm like counting weeks. Hope to get my pay cheq tmrw or Tuesday. I've got plan line up to shop for things heehehe...

Ok got to Go. Tmrw is another new week..

Oh ya and Happy Birthday to CK & Idi.. Mana kau Idi Samirudin senyap aje.. Colorado or KT?

I was not formally infrom that its his last day. Actually I'm pretty sad, because he is the most fun person to work with. I just like the way he speaks, talk and joke about. A miss I must say, another sole who's being asked to leave thru that open door and its an absolute hush hush. To him, the best of luck. Some one will deserve something better always.

I know what you did, but I shall not say much. As I'm human, we make mistake in life. He's life has always been involved with either someone who left him for someone else, or some married woman or divorce one's. I shall not say much AGAIN because I'm not sure where will I land myself into in the future..

I've requested to have some time to myself. Will only talk once I'm fully ready. Its been 4days, and I'm still considering to proceed or to give it a go. Only time will tell...

I spend my time with Za again. This time its till 1am! hahaha.. We meet up in the East, over cup of coffee and tea with toast bread - Za's treat again. It was around 8pm, as usual my story telling didnt stop. Za listen patiently. We seriously 'pick up from where we left' without any delay. There was so much thing to catch up on. It was almost 10.30pm when Min called Za after he finishes his class. Wanted to give me a ride home, instead they suggested on Supper. Apa lagi, story telling continues.. hahaha.. Za know me well, knows how our parents style of bringing us up. No late nights, calls home when you're late..

What is inside my head now? I dont know, I felt that I'm in total mess. Like berserabut! I'm back to asking 'what is it that you want in life'. Seriously I have not found the answer to that question.

Last weekend, I spend at CCK1 sleep over. Help Liyana with packing for her Philippines trip. Went to Queensway Shopping Centre to shop (I still owe you!). Went to CCK2 Dier & Zaf place for their small BBQ session. So Liyana left to Manila Tuesday. That same day, I had to send document to the local post. Decided to have it done at Kiliney Branch since it operates till 9pm. Had already made plans to maghrib at Al-Falah. I didnt know that their ladies are on renovation. Had to 'wuduk' at the car park toilet, a slight hassle actually. So Ladies, in case you didnt know its a reminder.

Blogging has my next bestfriend, because it has been my main target to trash my feeling, thoughts and everything in here. I miss him dearly, but I respected the choice to not to get myself involve. Whatever will be, Will Be!

Sunday there will be a wedding to attend. Khalil's wedding, dah besar budak tu dah nak kahwin pun. I met a 2nd cousin in the same office building. Azhar Aziz, anak Cik Mun working at Fusionopolis, the service facilities team there. I've seem him for more than 2 weeks I was there. But he only notice me when we were at JVC to buy lunch. He didnt notice all the while we took the same transport.

I'm super addicted to Mandarin series I tell you. I'm watching this series with Christopher Lee, Felica Chin. I think its th last episode today or something..

Ok thats enough for today. I have things line up for tomorrow. Update my CV, send some job application, to finish reading my book and return them soonest, merayap hehehe...

I speak to soon, its only been weeks. But I'm already feeling Rimas & Lemas. Actually the sign is already so clear, how could I have ignored it.

Its all wrong! Now I've got to clear my own mess that I've created. How could I get myself involve, yet time and again I've said to go with the flow. Now I've got to sit down and think on how to solve this.

Good Luck to me!

TruLy NoreeZ

Do You Remember...

The week has been awesome. And today is the only day that I stay indoor right after work hahah..

There are 2 person in my whole life that I call them Best Friend. 1 is a classmate in Sec 1 & 2, whereas the other is a friend of 18year. And this week I spend my time with them, Nya' and Za, after so long.

Tuesday, I meet up with Nya'. As soon as I receive the SMS from Ayah saying that Ustaz is not feeling well and Klass has been cancelled. I change the plan, alight the MRT and hop onto NEL to Habourfront. It was nothing much, just sit down over Coke and Rojak Buah & Carrot Cake. Tu aje dah cukup shiok! We ride on the NEL back home to Boon Keng & Nya' at Punggol. To Nurul Shifa, Happy Birthday to you.

Yesterday, I sms Za in the morning after that we exchange sms the whole afternoon. I feel that puas that we had to sit down and chat instead. I've always send her impromptu sms to meet up, but the time was always not right. Fortunately, yesterday she agreed to meet after work. Actually I was pretty excited to meet because its been 18years since we meet up. Apart from the time I saw her on the MRT about 8years ago, we didnt chat much.

I took the MRT to Tampines sms Za to meet around 7.15pm. The minute we saw each other, I cant stop talking and laughing. We settle down for coffee at StarBucks Tampines Mall instead. She said I look the same, but Za looks good to be compared when we were in our lower secondary, she is slimmer now. I told her I'm still the same kan, chatty and non stop talking hahaha...

We touch on a lot of things, from sch days to those guys I had crush on. To our common friends, to life stories about us that we miss out alot. Didnt realise that it was 10.30pm, Her husband called saying he has arrive but we felt that our stories has not ended! We plan to meet and continue stories again. Actually I know Za's Husband during my airport days. I'm sure Y will know him too because Y and me use to solat at the same Surau as Za's husband. Until after many years that I know that he is my best friend husband. Za share the same birthday month as me. I never forget the date and each year I always hope that I can locate her 1 day. Za, we meet again next week insya ALLAH..

I had a history of thyroid. Base on my last medical check up about 2-3 years back, I was infrom that the sign of it is no longer there. I recalled on having to take medication for a short while and Alhamdulliah, its gone.

When he told me that she passes on due to Thyroid, I was surprise to find out that she actually know about it however she refuse to seek treatment. She probably had to go for operation but she do not want to do it all for the 3 kids. If she had someone to talk to and seek 2nd opinion things will not be this way.

He told me that she was admitted since Friday, before that she cant eat, cant sleep or even lie down. The same day she was admitted she went into coma. We went into operation but doctor has infrom him that she is critical. The next day, she was already on live support. Doctor said that he had to make a decision because they have tried their best but she had to depend on live support only. He felt his knee went soft, he thought he might just fall or probably faint at that time. That night, everyone had to side by her side to baca Yassin. He still think that he had to make the decision. He whisper to her saying, 'if you need to go, I am willing. I will let you go if its suffering for you this way. I reda if you leave me and the kids.' He told his mother in law, that she has the right to have the say. Eventhough he is the husband. MIL decide to let her go peacefully rather than having her on live support. Doctor said that, she's has internal bleeding at that point. On Sunday night before midnight, they took off the live support and she went away peacefully. Hope she rest in peace.

I felt that he is just being strong, but you never know what is in his head and his heart. I'm sure there are adjustment and changes that requires to adapt to. Its always not easy, because you are use to doing the same thing for 15years or so. And now its different. I'm sure he can handle it, its a matter of time. And to his 2nd Daughter, Happy Birthday to you Today. I hope you will be a strong girl.

Today I asked if my contract is extended since they have agreed its up till end of May. I was inform that I'm needed till end of June instead, then from that they will decide. So should I make Plan B?

So what is in store for the weekend? I've yet to plan it..

TGIF!

Its the longest conversation after more than a month we get in touch. Is it a kebetulan or its mistake? It lasted for 33mins 22sec. See the number?I didnt calculate them, I happen to view it on my last duration on my phone lah.

We talk about old times, from our last date at Parkway to the Song that reminded us of each other. We talk about the photo of me & Ad which was still hanging at an her desk, its been there for more than 10 years. The photo should not be there, it has created hurt on so many people's heart. Someone else mention it before, he threw the elastic band at my picture feeling angry.

I shall not say anything more. Because my mind and my heart didnt sing the same song. I will leave it to faith. If our path cross, then its all up to HIM to decide. Because we happen to meet before and after, after almost 15years.

This is/was our song... (Honestly, now I feel that its the most 'kental' song ever!)