Its always the Case...

Its my "OFF" days starting today. so I was thinking might as well I do some shopping since I will only have a week. So I decided to go around Orchard to look for my desire handbag... Beaded or any nice dinner handbag in Gold to match wz my Shoes I bought 2 years back & I still have not wear them for some reasons lah...
I started wz OG, but I didnt see anything I like.
So I move ahead to Metro Paragon instead.. still no!! I tot I saw some of those beaded handbag months back.. Where have they been???
I was thinking I should just move on to Taka then.. Believe it or not, I saw a few of them. But it cost a bomb.. $79 for a handbag just for Raya. You've got to be kidding!!!
I was telling myself last stop will be Isetan Wisma & if i fail to find One, thats it, I should head back home. True enuf, sad to say I see NON!!..
I noe its always the case, when u wanna look for something they are not there. But when u dont need them, especially when its before pay day, then U see those nice things that u dont actually need them...
A hungry man is a Angry man indeed... I headed back home feeling Hungry &.. dissapointed. I shld look for 1 in KL, coz R@uDz bought One nice & afforable one in KL last month.. I think I should look for them at the same shop we went last month.
Anyway I'll be going to KL, just a short Kueh Hunting trip.. Best Nya!!!...

me 

Compliment!!!...

oh ya..!!
I receive a Compliment letter for a customer.. He's not SH cust yet actually. I was actually 'selling' our product, it must have sounded like an agressive selling for cust to change provider till he was convince that he should change. Hmmm... not bad, my selling skills is still wz me eventhough I'm no more in Sales Dept for more than 5years...

Well to M@rkUs the guy who send me the Compliment, you've make my day.. & made my Appraisal looks good for 2005..

Cheers...

Break Fast wz the Gang...

Today's Berbuka Puasa was FUN, at least i have some gang to eat togather.
@ini made burger from home, i had the Bubur Masjid, E@rniE only had MacD for Buka.
YuSri@n@ was having buka wz us too, she had Delifrance. R@F, Sur@yA, @nis from SHA & Kak Sheh@ also sama2 buka.... Best kan so many people around.. so fun. At least you dont feel so odd eating at office felling pathetic seh..

K 1 more day to Afternoon shift, Wed will be my OFF day again. In my head is just waiting to Relax on Off days that all... Actually want wait to go KL early Nov to see NuRuL, at least can Buka Puasa in KL... never had my Puasa there & buy Raya Kuih there too. This year, FiDz & myself will buy Kuih Muih instead of making them, we're not allowing Mak to make kuih this year. Anyway we just want her to have some rest & not distubing her Ibadah of Terawih & all since my parents are going Haj nxt year Jan 2005. So this time is Fully No Kuih Making, Fully Beli Punya lah...

Thats Life..

Ever since I started wz this blog, i just realise how boring my life can be. My stories are just work, thinking of someone who dont think of you & same daily life.. & thats all??
Gosh how boring my life can be. If its a working day then its just work, answer calls, speak to arrogant S'porean who are so calculative over 5cents & 10cents. Then they start to shout @ u, then they give u hell. Simply just ruin your day wz their nasty sarcastic & vulgar. Cant stand them, all the same.. Malay, Indian Chinese.. All the same... They just dont give you some peace even on Saturday & Sunday. After that we will start counting down time to go home @ 1830H, thats only if your in the morning shift. Otherwise if you work @ noon shift, you will have to wait till 2300H. At the end of the day you're back home, watch TV if time permits, nite comes then you go to sleep. Nxt morning, you will tell yourself, "Its another day" But no.. its the same thing over & over again. It just gets "sian", how I wish I can leave soon.. I said that many times. Its almost 5 years now, kept saying I'm leaving, I'm leaving.. but nxt year March 2005 Its my 5th year. My, How long is it gonna be?
Its been 2 years, I've not been mixing around or going out on date or what so ever you call it. Never expect to stay single at this age, never imagine. I've just got to do something.. Just dont noe where to start. I'm not desperate to look for someone, to think the fact that I've got to start over thats what I hate most. But I just have to start 'looking around'. To be honest, I wish I can leave S'pore soon. Not that I want to run away from thing, but maybe.. Just have to start somewhere like I said earlier. Just got to go away so that its a best excuse not to get near to people that will remind me of things that has happends in the past that leave me single till how.
I've wasted 3 years of my life getting hooked to someone, infact some-TWO.. They left & that leave me with being like this. Not regret, Never regret, but I felt that its about time, at this age of mine, that some responsibility of mine is given & shared with someone else who should take care of me rather than my parents. My parents never complaint, but I noe my mom is concern that I might NOT get myself involve wz any other man anymore... Its just difficult to explain.
Bottom line is.. What a boring life its been for me.. I think PMS coming, getting a bit emotional.. heeeheheheh....
Still the conclusion is.. ME still a Survivor Babe...

Cant wait for Tmrw Off Day..

Finally.. 2 days off frm tmrw onwards.
I'm so tired & lack of sleep. But thats common when Ramadhan comes. But this time I'm extreme exhausted due to the Afternoon shift then the day after I'm back to morning. Imagine, only 4hrs of sleep after back home @ 2330H on Sunday & wake up @ 0445H on Monday for Sahur..
Today didnt make it to Terawih @ Masjid, only did it @ home. Apa lagi perut ni buat hal lagi... Tmrw so much thing line up to be done, but 1st & for most my sleep.. Can wake up slightly later.. Best Nya!!!!...
Last Nite I receive an overseas miss call! If i see the number its definately a Middle East Mobile Number.. I thought its.. U Noe Who!.. But thats very unlikely. So I decided to call back the number... Someone said Hello!! with the person voice on the other end I noe its sure to be a Wrong Number..
Hai of all people in the world, a Middle East person dialled a wrong number to me!! Is it a Test or A Sign?? Mungkin tidak lah.. Cubaan....

** Its Just Not Worth It... **

I found out something ystdy, He@ has someone new!!  I knew it, I knew this will happend. I've already had the hunch months & months back. So how di I noe it now?? I hve my ways to find it out!!! My instincts say so too.  I've seen Her before last few mths, I have this strong sense.  I only presume things, but I dont hve much proof.  Anyway, now its obvious its another 'foreigner'. Coz i was the only Local Muslim in his short period relationship.  After all that I've gone thru, He@ simple found someone new so soon.  While I still think that He's the most wonderful person I've ever met.  So dumb me.. Bodoh.. 

Well, He's not worth my thoughts lah.  If I tell my friends this story they will tell me, "why u still think abt him? Why make yr heart sore by checking things out? I told you before he's not worth it??" ya, ya, ya.. they can say all that. But I'm glad I found it out myself, I see with my own eyes. I noe that I'm right... I knew this was coming, u might never noe I will receive news he's getting married soon.  Of all u noe he's married to her already!!

He just dont deserve me. I deserve someone better.  We are definately not compatible & I must say, his Best of Friends all sucks big time... Do i sound sour grape??? errrrrr............... I'm simply effected.  No More Miss Nice Lady. What happend to this STRONG lady?? What with all the Get Over it..  But I'm still Irritated!!!

I noe NuRuL will nagged at me, but its orite. I can accept her motherly naggin. I guess she must be tired of telling me the same thing over & over again. Always tell me to forget abt it, dont start to think & ponder over those things that will make my heart so sakit... K i make a promise not search for info freely so as not to make my heart sore again :P

Oh No, Its Back!!!

Oh No!! My stomach ache is back.. I hate it when it start twirling & twirling. I can only apply medicated oil on my tummy. On top of all I'm working noon shift, hai lemau. The minute I step out of home, I'm already feeling not good. Cant afford to go on MC, no more MC left. When its start to sweat & yawning.. oh no its a sign.. K Sabar2, relax evrything is gonna be fine. The afternoon sun is so Hot, start chanting prayers hope can make it to office. Selamat, manage to reach office in 1 piece. Has a slight argument wz R@udZ coz she starts nagging. Ask for medicated oil she ask me to bring sweets just incase. I dont want to think of breaking my Fast right, can prevent that from happening 1st then if really cannot tahan then its something else lah.

I dreamt of Him@ last nite.. The dream looks so drama. It was flooding in S'pore, macam Titanic pulak. The water is already up to the 5th floor of my 12th storey flat near Kallang River. I was trying to figure out how to swim, I dont noe how to swim lah! I saw my parents in the dream too, howevr i tagged along wz Him@ instead. Normally if we dreamt of someone they face is not so clear, but I saw his face so near. My whats up wz me man. Anyway its just a dream, permainan tidur. Now it make me think of him.

Its been exactly 2 years since He@ called off the wedding, I'm over it already. Cant simple say much. Still respect his family, they are a bunch of good people. Our family know each other for over 20years. Its just not fated to be together but I'm still strong, surviving. But sometime its not good to be strong all the time. I've always been given the copmpliment of a strong lady but God Knows how strong I am. Sometimes weak too. Woman, what do u expect!

Today I buka alone, having Masalah Tosai for Buka. Ask my colleques TeeB@ to buy for me at Tekka. Mesti Sedap punya lah...

1st D@y Pu@s@

Today's Puasa went well Alhamdulliah.
However its a Hot day, felt so thristy especially during Terawih. Subahanallah, haus nya hari ni. Meet Bibik & my cousin, Sofi & Hestee @ the Masjid Haji Md Salleh Geylang having Terawih togather.
ok tmrw is another day...

Selamat BerPuasa...

Selamat Datang Ramadhan, esok dah puasa... Alhamdulliah berjumpa lagi di Ramadhan tahun ini.. Alhamdulliah.

Today afternoon shift till 2300H. Dinner break we went makan @ Tekka Market. Makan Beryani Ayam.. hmmm sedap nya : P
balas dendam nampak, esok dah puasa.

I just got to noe frm NuRuL dat Riz@l has resign UPS. Such an idiot.. I guess he just do not noe what to do in Life...
Riz@l's my ex for 2 yrs. we plan to get married until 1 day in Oct 2001 he decided to mention things like.. "we need space.." So thats it!! I knew it.. its over! we plan on things like a place to stay near KLIA for convenience sake. Bought a house & I contributed RM$ for d house we viewed. Ya, Riz@l is frm KL... we noe each other since 1999 coz we were working in J@L... anyway he left me, got married to a M@S stewardess now they've got themself a 1yr old daughter. Good for them lah, happy family. However he still hve an unfinish business wz me.. My RM$3000+ is still left unpaid to me.. Its been 2 years since the last payment done, only Last Aug 04 NuRuL got the other RM$200 so called installment need to be settle. Now he's gone missing again... Wish him Luck lah...

Berapa hari ni ramai pulak orang kol, old friends lah.. Sur@tm@n my secondary schoolmate called, he heard that I'll be leaving to KL after Raya this year. I told him not yet.. so touched, called all the way just to chk if I'm really leaving already... H@slind@ my ex colleques in J@L called, we're talking abt the Raya show in SuRi@ my sister, FiDz & R@udz went last sunday. Talking abt how was the @NZ show doing, was good lah coz got to see @NZ again.. Anyway he sang live, 2 songs.. Fuyooo Power seh. Menusuk ke kalbu, tangkap lentok ah!! Ai Seh man.. heeeheheh...

@NZ 

Wh@t A D@y...

I receive an email frm F00Z that he was delighted to receive the cake yesterday afternoon. I told him its the thought dat counts. However he told me that gambar cake tu Massallah Gambar SuperMan!! Mak ai.. malu nya. I've got to call the cake order to chk what is going on, i asked for Chocolate Cake. Apasal jadi Cake SuperMan.. heehehheheh...

I was having lunch today, so decided to eat in. There is this guy I'm close wz, R@f dah jadi good friend. anyway he is married lah ada anak 1. So talk to him in the pantry. Sekali tu, ada sorang amoy ni sikit punya turn off. She slap my butt betul2 depan R@f & the best part Panty is full coz all lagi makan. Mak Kau, i am so embarrassed chendol betul. Furthermore its so bloody Loud she smack me... Tak sakit lah eventhough its so kuat & the sound was loud, but its so very malu coz everyone was looking at me. I simply cannot look at R@f after that, but i just pretend nothing happend... siap si Amoy ni, nanti hari dia datang siap dia. She called me Discipline Mistress coz she said my face look so garang everyday. So it guess she was trying to act friendly, nak step good friend lah kira but tak kena tempat nya...

Tmrw on noon shift, seems I'm gonna miss the 1st day of Terawih then.. At least on Friday the 1st day of Puasa is my off day...

The First Blog...

Finally...
I've been wanting to create a Blog Page since.... since... i dont noe when... heeheheh.
Was still stuck with the old fashion Diary Writing. Once since this year or two time just dont permit me to sit down & write.
I've started writing diary since donkey years.. school days... Why girl like to write diary hah?? I was ever being question by a guy Friend or two. They just dont understand what do this girls write in their diary.. Of course! Its for me to noe & not for you to Find out!!!!...

K today is my off day.. few more days more to Ramadhan. This year didnt get to change all my afternoon shift. I hate to ask around, like begging to swap to morning shift... ya lah I tot this a chance not to be miss lah rite, since the month of Ramadhan is the only time we can eat proper dinner at home & then to go Terawih wz the rest of the family. Bila lagi nak buat baik kan... But not too bad lah, manage to change 6 days out of 15 of the afternoon shift... K lah ber syukur aje lah...

I'm so excited abt today coz I've made a birthday cake order to be send to a friend today coz tmrw is his bday. My email & never met friend, FooZ He is 1 of the write of a local Magz in Spore. Nice guy to chat wz, talk sense & such a great listener. Got to noe him for almost a year plus. Kawan aje lah.... Good Friend lah kira. His bday is tmrw. I remembered his bday is the same day as my TL Daisy, last year we had a grand bday celebration for Daisy till she cried.. so touching.. It was a hell of a Grand bday celebration, coz she is like a mother to all of us.. so we all are very comfortable wz her. However i remember sending a bday wish to FooZ, he told me.. "Thanks for remembering coz nobody in the office remember..." kesian nya dia... so this year kita buat 'gembaq'... I've ordered a chocolate cake, which i noe he cannot resist, to be send to his office.. I send him my bday photo wz a Big Chocolate bday cake.. he something like tak kasi sikit ke.. heeeheheh.... *Surprise...* Hopefully he likes it lah, Insya ALLAH. Didnt mean anything, just a thought to make someone happy on d big day...

NoReeZ