Saturday, February 21, 2009

Its a Reminder..

The week started pretty hectic. There was a conference going on back in the office from Wednesday till Friday. I was pretty occuppied with 'food management'! Yes, I was given the task to take charge of the Tea Breaks and Lunch for the whole conference. Wed was the beginning of 'everything'. I arrived as early as 8.25am, making sure that the conference room has been open and the tables has been arrange nicely. Infact, I've arrange the table the day before fit for 22 people.

After getting the morning tea break ready back to my office tables with usual office task. I receive Raudz call telling me that Tok is not well. He has called all his children back home but he looks ok, but not ok! I got confused.. I'm in the middle of the conference arrangement, how am I to leave the job task and go back home? Ayah called about 30mins after that, telling me not to rush. Tok is Ok but he seems confused.. I heard him Mengucap at the back ground and my heart start pumping so fast. Eh, what is going on ni?? Its unlike Tok to call everyone back home.. and this doesnt sound good at all. Had to tell my AM that I Have to leave.. Home is important. Saf called me, asking if I'm in the office. She wanna go back Tok's place with me..

At 11am, after calling Yazid telling him what was going wrong. Actually he was the 1st person I called to inform. I believe he will understand me better in this kind of situation. He calm me down, asking if I am ok. I told him I am.. So met Saf at the MRT, took the train back home. Saf kept repeating, "macam mana ni Intan??? kenapa dgn Tok ni? I takut ah.."

Reached home, everyone was around. All was near Tok. Yes he seems confused, but he managed to baca all kinds of Doa in full. He zikir Ya ALLAH, he said Insya ALLAH many times. But when he starts talking, everything seems to be jumbled up. Safiah jadi Basirah.. and he kept asking, "sapa ni eh?" .. We said, Liza.. "ah sapa ni eh?" He got stressed up not being able to pronunce and remember Liza till he broke down and cry.. We were all so helpless. He kept counting the number of children he has. Trying very hard to remember all their name.."Mohd... Mohd..." the 2nd name he cant recall, when all his son's name starts with Mohd for Rahim, Rashid, Razali and Rafid..

Toward late noon, Bapak Rahim decided with the rest that should call the ambulance and send him to hospital instead. By then, he was slightly better.. That was after Bibik gave him medication for the heart. He starting to recall some people, that was already 6pm.

That evening, Ayah followed the ambulance and was send to A&E at TTSH. At almost 9pm, he was warded and many test was being done to him that night. The next day, we were told that he was having a minor stroke and there was a blockage on his neck. Probably the blood didnt flow up to the brain and that causes the temp memory lost. Yesterday, he gets better and this afternoon when I went to visit him, he was much much much better. Kak Liza tested him asking who am I, he said "Milda!" haahaha..

Alhamdulliah Tok is getting better, berkat Doa from so many people. Insya ALLAH he should be discharge in the next few days or so..

I'll be given another task to cater for department lunch early March. I'll have to enquire a few places.

Next week on Thurs, Nadiah and her Ayah will be on a School Mallaca Historical trip for 2D1N. Nadiah was surprise that her Ayah really mean it about following the Parent Support Group team. That was after I encourage Yazid to go and probably bond with the daughter.. Yazid said, "you gonna miss me tau?" Its ok lah, be apart for a little while, then we get to appreciate each other better. If not, we meet every other very very often..

February is very short. Next week is the end of the month already. Then comes March, and soon it will be April. And Nizam's wedding is in less than 2 months.. Soon the card will be out for distribution. That is what happen when its beginning of the year, it moves very fast.

Monday, February 09, 2009

Over Acting?

I didn’t realize that when I care so much, I get over board. Am I obsessed?

I end up getting worried and my mind just refuse to focus and start thinking “ok ke tak?” And now I end up making mistake at work. Who’s fault is it? Mine lah! Maybe that is the only way to show that I care. But I’m helpless when people just refuse to hear. So I end up crying…

Now I notice my another weakness… Care to much, bothered to obvious. Mak kata, kalau sayang sangat kat orang tu, jangan sampai jiwa raga aku serah kan.. Leave 10% to yourself then you learn appreaciate it more.

Learning No 2 – Try to relax, make it less affected. Maybe someone will notice… I'm trying to, but its harder than I expected!

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

All Over Again?

I thought all this while, after trying to win a bit of the trust, I have manage to at least pass 30% of the 'test'. Unfortunately, it started all over again... To actually think that I was actually being excluded just to prevent from being 'accused' was pretty sad. To actually picture the whole senario has already make me feel like crying. To actually felt that I was included by 'force' is making me feel less important. If things has been explained probably I might understand, a bit lah! Maybe, even if its hard to swallow.. Now I will have to start all over again..

I was out with 'my eldest daughter' Nadiah on Monday, its been some time since we last spend time together. We end up going to the same place over and over again. But as long as we get a decent meal together and buy stuff that she likes its alright with me.

Its already February.. The month is moving pretty fast actually. I've got to count months, hope I dont have to count years.

I'm watching Cucuku Sayang now on TV. haahaha.. I think its really true, real life story. The wife asking the father and husband to do house work because she decided not to hire a maid. She asking the husband and father to divide the house chores so that she can rest after a days work in the office.. hahaha. Dunia dah terbalik kot!

We had a birthday surprise for Kak Suzana in the office. We had it on Tuesday.. had it planned since last week. Azlin was given the honor to asked kak Suz out for lunch, konon nya at Golden Shoe. But we actually had it at the 17th floor conference room. Jacq pretended to leave for lunch 1st. Then I said goodbye to leave for the day.. Our acting was not bad at all hahaha.. She was pretty surprise that we had it all planned out. Ordered Pizza Hut (and the delivery guy was Yazid and my ex colleague in CIAS - Norashikin) and I went to buy a Chocolate Truffle from Royal Cakes..

It was Zafeera, Suzana Yunan and 'Abah's' birthday all on the same day 02.02. Bought something for Abah when I was out with Nadiah the other day.. Hope he likes it.

Ok I hope weekend will start from Friday!