Today is a super busy day. The office moving in less than a week.
I had to lunch in, with CH who wants to join. He has asked me to buy lunch for him for the 1st time. "Kita nak biasa eh?" Biasa apa, kita belum biasa lah... Finished my lunch early, seat down to continue my packing.
Its 1319hrs when my hp rang. "Siapa ni call tengahari buta?" The number looks like its coming from a kantor bandara. Oh no! I picked up the call, a familiar voice came. Still sounded the same, address me the same way just like 14years ago. Then the flash back start playing in my head....
I was trying to recall how it all started. We went out, just the two of us. I cant remember how I agreed to the 'date'. We went Parkway Parade, just right after office hours. I know he was attached actually. But only know that it was just months to his wedding from others. Felt cheated, my feeling was lead on.. Someone close did tell me, "you ingat dia nak call off the wedding just because he's now having the things with you? Jangan harap lah.." I hate that, I felt so berdosa. He called home, mak spoke to him saying that he should stop calling since he's getting married soon.
The wedding was on, I didnt attend. Less than a year, right on my birthday week he announced the arrival of his 1st baby. A girl was born just days before (or after) my birthday. He says, "now I will remember your birthday since its the same as my daughter."
After 14years, I emailed him, I didnt wipe my signature when my contact number is clearly reflected. Stupidity! Surprise to get the call actually. But I actually know he's brave enough to do it. I can bet on it, he will call.
He asked, "are you married?" I said no. "But I thought you were engaged kan?" I asked how do you know? I can sensed it. Betul ke?
You think he will call again? I bet he will.. If he is asking me out, I think its not a right time. The lost is still new.. But you think I should agree to things, even after all this years? I think I have to sit down & decide. Not think twice, but more than that.
Why all this Three guys came at the same time at the same sequence just like 14years ago eh? How I wish that I was 14years younger, then I change things and make it better.. On second thought.. I better NOT!
Things has got to change. A job, a life then the rest will fall back nicely. I should be able to take things better at this age.
Actually kan, I miss Pumpkin.. My cousin's cat. She's such a 'qui' cat, playful. I'm afraid of cats actually. But not too the extreme. But Pumpkin is different. She sit on my leg when I was in bed that night at Savanah. I felt that she sat right beside me at around 3am. I realise it already past subuh, I turn my head felt some one was watching me. Pumpkin! Kau dok mengadap muka aku tido? Ya ampun, its only 7am... I want to pay back some sleep please, she wants to play. Now I miss her..